hello hello everyone. okay a lot has been happening mostly bad things i suppose.
as you know from last times entry i was going to blink182 and i did, ill get to that later.
so yesterday my mom had the IO digital man come to our house to install IO in the den
and in my room. The IO in my room works great but the IO in the den fucked up our
beautiful den tv like you wouldnt believe, the whole colors off its all orange and it jumps,
and all that shit. Sooo...i got upset and i feel bad for my mom cause she needs/wants a
job and everyone she's talked to telling her theyll give her a job fucking lies cause when
she goes and talks to them they never call her back...so yeah i became upset. then i went
with my dad and fought with him in the car and he said if we cant afford things to get rid
of them he told me "get rid of cable and america online" and i was like but i use them and i
need the internet to do homework. And i was like okay so say i get rid of cable and i dont
have it anymore you arent going to think "my daughter doesnt have cable so let me pay
for it for her" and he told me no. i swear i feel like shit. he makes me that way. he trys to
tell me im crazy but im not. im sick of being the last one to know everything i was the last
one to know he was dating, last one to know he was having a baby, last one to know he
was getting married and everyone else was invited to the wedding but me thats nice </3
i fucking hate him he thinks im going with him this weekend cause he has visitation well im
not and he was like well then you dont get your presents and honestly i dont really care.
im sick of crying, im sick of being sick, i swear he knows nothing about me, and im sick
of being fucking sick i swear crying and all this shit, i lost like 20 pounds cause of nerves.
and its scary. and i told him how i bet he slept with her while he was with my mom and
he laughed and said we were separated and i was like yes, but by paper you were still
married and that just makes me sick that he cheated on my mom. he said mommy kicked
me out and i was like well you didnt have to go, and yeah fuck him let him live a happy
fucking life with his new family.
So then came the blink concert that night i went to it, i forgot about what had happened
that day. The concert was actually really good! i enjoyed it. Travis did a Zeppelin solos
and rawked, he went in the middle of the crowd and performed cause he rose up from
under this thing and yeah it rawked. I also saw cole and ryan there and i thought ryan like
hated me but i saw cole and said LOSER! lol and pointed at him and then he was like
HEYY lol and then ryan was like is that gina!? lol and cole said yes and ryan said hi and
waved i swear that made me feel good in a way because i guess he doesnt think im that
bad, but yeah it was fun. No Doubt was really good live but i had to leave early so i
couldnt see them sing Spiderwebs live which made me sad cause thats my favorite song
but yeah it was fun, then on the car ride home i thought about all the things that are going
wrong like my mom hardly not having any money, her always buying me shit that i dont
need, i feel rather greedy like a bitch, and im sick of being this way getting all this stuff i
dont need nor deserve. so yeah im going to go now.
good news? ehhh...: My moms friend tommy said hed pay for a tv man to come look at
the tv! yay. so thats a bill my mom doesnt need to pay.
this sucks i hate life as of now, things arent getting any better. | 
